Monday, April 18, 2011

*Meh*

I am feeling meh. You know that feeling. I'm just going through the motions and trying not to succumb to the feelings of being overwhelmed, sad, stressed out (!!!) and completely exhausted. I've had a long stretch of seemingly bad luck and after so much time, it gets hard to rally and even harder for me, the die-hard pessimist, to see any of the positives. And there are positives, don't get me wrong. It's just that the negatives are just so draining.

It's hard to be unsure how secure your position is at work. It's hard to see parents getting older and getting more confused and immobile. It's hard to be the youngest and go through it all alone. It's incredibly hard to have to rebuild a new circle of friends...especially when you are feeling meh and are more prone to being a hermit when things don't need to be taken care of. It's hard to shop for a car when you don't want to deal with salespeople. And it's especially hard to realize you don't really have anyone to put down as an emergency contact because everyone has left or become unreliable. It's hard to keep whining about the same things but seriously, nothing seems to get better. Perhaps I have some voodoo hex on me that I don't know about?

So, I'll be laying low for a while as I am tired of being a downer on my own blog. I'm stitching when I can but my motivation is slowing down. I think I need something bright and vibrant to stitch on to set me into a better mood.

Speaking of the blog, my little space is turning 6 soon. Can you believe that?! I'll rally to host a surprise a little later. Nothing huge...I have a car to save up for and all...but something cute and useful.

Until next time...

47 comments:

Faye said...

We all have "slumps"...hope yours is short lived.....hang in there, Faye

Maggee said...

Hey Val... another contributor could be the fact that you live in a city that is always foggy and dreary. Could be SAD and you have reached the end!! Come out sun!!! And STAY out!! Hugs for you!!

Margaret said...

Oh Valerie, I'm sorry. You so deserve to be happy and stress-free. I think we're both in the same boat at the moment if that helps any. I know it doesn't. :( I hope things get better for you. I will be thinking of you and sending good vibes your way. Good luck with the car search -- not fun, that's for sure! Hang in there!

Andrea said...

Valerie, girlfriend, I think I know just how you feel...everything you described are feelings I've had before. It's so easy to think people don't understand because your situation is unique, but lots of people have been in our shoes, in one way or another, and understand how you're feeling. Hopefully it helps to know that you have stitching friends out there (here) that care for you. I wish I were closer so I could come by and bring you a little cheer.
That, or we could cry together, depending on my hormones, lol!
Love ya!

Melissa said...

Oh, yeah, I'm in *Meh*ville with you. I totally get it! Sometimes it's like you just have to play dead and let it all be done with and hopefully get up, dust yourself off and be all rested with a new attitude, etc!

(Hear my inner pep talk?)

Take care, Valerie!

Myra said...

I do know the feeling and am sorry to hear it is effecting you. I will keep sending happy thoughts your way.

CalamityJr said...

Hang in there - and don't forget you have many friends in "blogland" and we're all willing to lend a listening ear!

April Mechelle said...

I just came out of the slumps this past week. Didn't want to go anywhere or do anything.. The weather is better this week.. Sunny and in the high 80's. I have peeked up a lot. Hope you get feeling cheerful & sunny soon..

Catherine said...

I think we all know that feeling! Hugs...Catherine

Pointed Stitcher said...

So sorry you are feeling so down. You have many stitching friends who care for you and so does God.

Jackie said...

I've been feeling meh too lately about work. I'm living for the weekend and it feels like I'm wishing 5/7th of my life away. ugh!

mainely stitching said...

Come on over to Maine. I'll hook you up with some amazing chicken therapy. Seriously, it works! (And I'm even getting some geese, too - you've got to come!)

I know how you feel, I'm sorry to say. If you'd like to talk, I'm around.

carol fun said...

I know the feelings and sometimes you are just going to be *meh* - it can't be helped till the time is right. Know that lots of people are pulling for you and sending good thoughts your way - take care!

Theresa said...

I just feel like giving you a big hug!!!!!! ((((((HUG))))))
Hang in there!!!!

Sylvia said...

Valerie,

I am so sorry to hear that you are in a slump - those times are just no fun. I know that life sometimes can just get overwhelming, especially when things are not going well. Hang in there. I always take comfort in the saying "And things have come to pass" meaning that they will pass and not stay. There are sunny days ahead for you!

caerbannog said...

I'm so sorry that you're going through a difficult time. I've definitely been through those "meh" feelings and know how hard it is to keep your head above water. I hope it passes by fast for you. Know that lots of people here really do care about you. *hugs*

mbroider said...

Oh dear Val, I have been feeling low myself this past week or so. Hope you get out of this slump soon.

Sending prayers your way...
Luv
Sharmila

Carol R said...

[[[Hugs]]] to my dear friend. Feel better soon!

Hazel said...

Oh Val I am really feeling for you. Wish I lived closer so I could come round with cake and cheer you up! Try and spoil yourself whenever you can. You need a good spoiling! xx

Giovanna said...

I'm sorry you're feeling so down at the moment - I hope thing will get better for you real soon.

KarenV said...

{{{{Valerie}}}} I haven't been around on blogs much but I've been thinking of you recently. I'm sorry that you're having a hard time right now and wish I could do more than just leave a comment. I do hope things start working out for you very, very soon - I'll continue to think good thoughts and send good vibes your way.

Carol said...

I think we all have times in our lives like this, Valerie...Just know that we're all thinking of you and wishing we could offer more than a kind word... You are such a special person and I do hope your luck changes very soon...hugs to you, my friend...

Lisa said...

I totally understand how you feel. I have been on that roller coaster of feeling "meh" followed by a "yahoo" then back to the "meh". Being overwhelmed is a big factor as well as being confronted with a new situation is another. You have a lot going on in your life and with shopping for a new car, I am sure the stress level is way up there. Over here, on this side of the bay area, my plate continues to be full and the new experience of *The Business* & buying a new store leading to low bank accounts and high credit card balances = new scary, stress. And it doesn't help that I feed off the stress & worry of the rest of my family under this roof.
What I have been trying to do is keep up with my blog friends, facebook friends and email those who aren't either. I try to sit and look around at the positive and be grateful for the little things I have. I try to make my own happiness so that getting out of bed when I have the "meh" feeling is easier.
Take a deep breath, look at all the comments you have on this post...you are not alone, we are all here supporting you and here to lean on. Don't stop posting your thoughts and feelings on the blog because you are worried about what we will thing. Getting those thoughts & feelings are healthy and those who stick around to read and/or comment are those who care.
I will send positive sunny thoughts your way!
Take care my friend!

Anna van Schurman said...

I hope that things turn around for you soon.

Katrina said...

Hugs Val!!!! I think we all go through 'times' in our lives where we feel a bit sad and introspective. Hope you start to feel better soon!!!!!

Sally said...

Lots of hugs coming your way Valerie. I know just how you feel and I wish for something good to happen for both of us.

Take good care and we'll be here waiting for you to come back.

Barb said...

Hang in there kiddo. You always have us blogging buddies. I get scared a lot and sometimes the fear makes me stop dead in my tracks. Ridiculous but it feels real.

Edgar said...

Sorry so low - big hugz from me to you!! Take all the time you need.

Chocolates4Breakfast (TerriBoog) said...

I feel your agony, Valerie. I have had the year from hell myself and stones just keep getting thrown on the pile. It is hard to take and hard to keep going some days. I hope you feel better soon. If there is anything I can do - drop me a line. I'll see if I have a cheery chart for you.

Rachel S said...

Hope things get better. I know for me, I just sometimes have to change the things I can, and give the other things over to the universe. THen just take it one day at a time. It will get better.

Fancy Colors Cross Stitch said...

Val - keep your chin up! I too battle those feelings frequently. My life just isn't what I had hoped sometimes. I keep thinking of the things I'm thankful for and try to stay positive. Hang in there!
Kathy

Peggy H. said...

Hang in there. It will get better. I am having a day like that and one day is certainly enough for me. During these times just don't expect too much from yourself, but make sure whatever you choose to do is something uplifting, a funny movie or something. Whatever you do don't be around downer people or put your self in downer places.

Good luck.

Peggy H.

Julie said...

lots of 'cheer-you-up' {{hugs}}

Melanie said...

Hang in there. I hope with summer comes some sunlight to chase away the gloomies. *hugs*

Nicole said...

I'm so sorry you've been feeling down Valerie!! I hope you feel better soon!!

Shelleen said...

I get feeling like that sometimes. It doesn't last long and sometimes you just need to hang out with other stitchers :-)

Pumpkin said...

Like Faye said, we all have slumps! Take the time you need though. I'm one to withdraw as well but don't be gone too long because we'll miss you :o) ((((HUGS)))) Things will get better.

Beth said...

It is a real bummer when you feel like you just can't catch a break. With this economy, and your parents being at the age they are, it has to be very stressful. I hope things clear up for you soon.

I see my DD struggling at 30 to find real friends and, as a single mother, find any romance. It is hard and I wish there were such a thing as a magic wand. After I used it on DD, I would lend it to you!

Take care

Natalia said...

I hope things get better for your soon, Valerie. We all go through those times when things just seem to pile up one after the other and you can't see the end of the misery, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. Hang in there..

Robin said...

So sorry to hear you are feeling so blue. All those things do put a drain on a person. Know you are not alone and remember to take time for yourself...not the moping around kind.....time to do something you like....window shop at the mall and buy a fancy coffee, rent a movie, take a bubble bath with candles lighting the room, get outside and get ready to start enjoying the spring, turn the radio up loud and dance like a crazy fool...laugh at yourself...but don't put any pressure on yourself....dabble in the things you enjoy.

Carm said...

I feel the same way. My salon is going downhill not enough traffic by it to get new clients. Something always seems to go wrong that cost big $$!I pray each month I have enough to m ake my car payment.My 2 youngest GC have to go to Mexico to live with their dad and his family, they've never seen the family. I keep in touch almost daily with my parents by phne since they live about 1 1/2 hrs away. But, my brother has always been the favorite. So I know how you feel about that ,too. My faith and stitching of many kinds are what keep me going. maybe we can stitch our way out of this funk together. Carmie

Jo said...

Sorry to hear you are feeling meh - maybe by focussing on some lovely stitching you'll start to feel better. I had a month off work with stress/anxiety/depression at the start of the year, and it is hard dealing with everything... just hang in. Hope you still feel up to following blogs even if you don't feel like posting - think of the lovely inspiration. {{hugs}} Jo

Suzanne said...

I am sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. I hope that you feel better soon.

Lois said...

Valerie, sorry to hear that things are getting on top of you. Hope you're feeling better about things soon.

Siobhan said...

((((((((((((((((Valerie))))))))))))))) I can relate to the meh feelings. Hang in there, gf. I'm thinking of you.

Michelle said...

So...I understand that Mercury has been in retrograde and it's been especially nasty. But now we're out of that...so maybe (I'm crossing my fingers and toes), things will begin to get better. It is so hard when it's just constant pounding by all this stuff and you don't even get a break to catch your breath. It's even harder when you feel like you don't have anyone to vent to/lean on. I hope things start to look up - I'm waiting for things to look up here too - and we will all feel better! Big hugs!!

Meari said...

I can totally relate about the insecurity about the job. I'm there, too.

When I shopped for my car, I did a lot of searching online. After I found what I wanted at a price I wanted, then I went to a dealership. Know what you want for trade-in (again I used the internet) and don't let them give you any less.

Hang in there. Things have to gett better!