Sunday, June 05, 2011

Randomness #...I Lost Count (Edited)

*You can try your hardest to help someone but it won't do any good if that person isn't willing to help themselves.

*You can't make people change. Even if they do, it's only for the short term and then they revert back to their "normal" selves.

*Sometimes, peace, quiet and stitching (and tv...can't forget about that!) is more therapeutic than a night out on the town.

*I'm thankful for friends who lend me an ear and tell me they think I did the right thing even though at times, I don't think I did.

*To help someone because it's the right thing to do...for them...sometimes means it is not the right thing for you and you come out a bitter, angry, resentful shell of the person you used to be.

*Reminders of the person you used to be 12 years ago are spirit-lifting and smile inducing. I miss that person! Now the goal is to find that "me" again and have fun doing it. Oh to be young and carefree.

*Sunday farmers' market...wheat loaf, lemon curd croissant, strawberries, apricots, eggs, cinnamon raisin bagels, zucchini and summer squash. Yum, yum, yum. There were squash blossoms but I don't know how to make those...

*I'm grateful for an awesome onsite apartment manager that can save me and my scattered brain when I lock myself out of my apartment.

*Random text invitation from a friend to go see a movie made my day!

*I wonder what acupuncture would be like...guess I'll find out tomorrow! Eek!

*All day meeting tomorrow....it's going to be a looonnnng day! And a sad day as I'm sure the topic of the two SF firefighters who died will come up. It hits a little too close to home.

*I'm happy that people seem to like my randomness posts! Thank you, thank you...

*Today is the first day in the past year where I am 100% happy that I am single and that I am done mourning the loss of a relationship that probably would have killed me on so many levels if I had stayed in it. My heart has finally caught up to my head. And I feel deserving of all the things I was holding out for before...waiting for that mad, passionate, extraordinary love to find me. And I got tired of waiting...and I settled. No more settling...no more pinning...no more sadness. I am done and ready to have fun and rediscover myself.

*I'm making good progress on WMHB and I may just finish it by the end of the week! Stay tuned for a picture when I do!

Enjoy the rest of the weekend...I'll be back soon with photos and stuff.

Until next time...

12 comments:

staci said...

Sounds like you got some really yummy things at the farmers market! I've never made squash blossoms, but I've seen that they're battered and fried usually :)

I love a quiet evening of stitching and tv/dvd :)

Have a great week Valerie!

Myra said...

I can't wait until our farmer's markets get going here. Love that fresh produce. What movie did you go see?

Catherine said...

I'm all for peace, quiet and stitching!

Theresa said...

You're going for your first acupuncture? Don't worry, it's not as painful as it looks.

Farmers market is always fun~~~

Can't wait to see your finish!!

Margaret said...

I'm glad you're not going to settle for anything less than the right guy this time. And that you're happy being single. It really is amazing how we change over the years, isn't it? Sorry you had a bad experience helping someone. :( Didn't hear about the SF firefighters. So sad. Good luck at the all day meeting -- sounds very boring. Snore......

Carol said...

Sounds like you've closed the book on that chapter of your life, Valerie, and I know that you can find the "you" of 12 years ago! May your next chapter be filled with joy, fun, new experiences, and happiness :)

Good luck with the acupuncture and that long meeting (how do you stay awake? I find myself starting to nod off even at 2-hour meetings at work!)...

VALIE said...

Funny, I helped somebody out of a pretty bad phase 10 days ago, I really did, and I ended up hurting quite a lot. I was rather shocked at first that it could happen at all. I mean to be more cautious in the future !
Hope you find serenity. I find there is no end to this quest...

Natasha said...

You should NEVER settle EVER! You are an amazing person with a huge heart and your funny as hell :D Your dark cloud has lifted hopefully to never return. Take Care and enjoy yourself

Hazel said...

Well I think you sound more positive hunny. I soo wish I lived nearer - those croissants sound yum. I am having some changes happening to me at the minute. I don't think it's a midlife - just waking up to reality and saying stuff it - stuff them! I'm with you hun. x

Pumpkin said...

Good for you Valerie! It takes time for whatever feelings you have to heal. You have to remember though that your happiness is the most important because it's your life and not someone elses'.

I hope you enjoyed acupuncture. I find it really helps my anxiety.

Sally said...

I am so glad you're feeling happier. It's really hard sometimes isn't it and try as I might I can't lift myself at the moment. Sheesh! You deserve to be happy {{{{hugs}}}}

I can't wait to hear how the acupuncture went.

Michelle said...

Good for you deciding your not going to settle. You deserve someone that fits what you're looking for! Can't wait to see your finish! And the acupuncture is always good - not painful.