No pictures and no real progress to share since my last post. I've continued the border up to the March block but have until September to do and am trying to intermix threads from different skeins of Dried Thyme to make the new border section blend more with the old border section. To be honest...it's kind of a pain in the a**, but that's ok. The border actually goes pretty fast.
Last night was fairly disappointing. *The boy* lost his contracting gig and he is back to square one...again. It's really frustrating to me because all I've known is this really nice guy who tells me he can take care of himself but it's something I haven't really seen in the 10 months I've been seeing him. So I'm cranky and frustrated and annoyed and pretty much running on fumes in the patience department. He's frustrated because his bad luck is running amock for some reason and he is still stuck on crutches. So again...we had the conversation about the *what if's* surrounding his upcoming doctor's appointment.
What if the doctor says the healing is coming along and he's off the crutches? He stays and goes to every interview he can to find another job and move out of my place to get his own place. I am craving space and frankly, to go from crazy serial dater who is strongly independent to immediate live-in, practically marriage with no chance at having an entire day to myself in my own apartment is killing me. Like seriously. It's too much at one time. I'm surprised I haven't gone running to the hills screaming.
What if the doctor says the leg is not healing? *The boy* is getting on a plane back to the east coast to spend time with family and have a stronger support system. As much as I have done, *I* am the only one who has done anything. His friends deserted him when he needed the most help and I'm pretty much at the end of my rope and super pissed at his friends that I can spit nails! So, he would leave until it either healed or after any surgery he might need and he says he'll come back to SF. Frankly, after this whole scenario, I'm too wiped out to even think about jumping on the dating bandwagon for a really long time. If anything, I'll have plenty of time to stitch!
I'm hoping to distract myself enough to not think about the *what if's* until next Thursday so maybe I'll actually get some good progress done on this border before the start of the weekend.
On a happier note, Violarium and Patti are both having giveaways next week. Hurry and take a look on my sidebar before time runs out! Good luck...
Hope everyone is having a good start to their week!
Until next time...
5 comments:
Don't let the "what if's" get you down or drive you crazy. While things have a way of working themselves out - I have learned not to spend a lot of time & energy on "what if's" - try to wait until the situation happens and then to make decisions on what to do. That is not to say I ignore it until the time, I do put a little for planning into the situation - just try not to stress out about it (a good example in my life is the upcoming tryouts of older son the weekend of 7/17 - DH is already stressing).
What you need is a stitchers day out!
Oh Valerie, I'm sorry about your situation with "the boy". I hope things resolve themselves one way or another soon and that you start to feel less frustrated. Hang in there!
I can understand why you are so frustrated!!! Don't think so much about the what if's though!!!
Good luck getting back to a quality of life that makes you happy!
Don't let the 'what if's' run your life right now. Holy cow, I know what you're going through, but keep your chin up and let it all just roll off you like water off a duck's back. Kudos to you for all the patience and support you've given 'the boy'; I don't know if I could have done that. I hope the situation finds a resolution that will allow you to take a breather. You definitely deserve to get some space back and a little Me time to boot! I hope you get both very soon!
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